I pretty much stopped wearing makeup when we started staying at home. I started with dry brushing and a nighttime skin care ritual that contains lots of moisturizer and serum, but includes a micro-current device for the home. The silver lining all the time at home meant that I finally turned to a beauty routine that was more about what I really wanted in the long term and for myself. My shopping history over the past four months tells a similar story. I bought a "nap dress" and leggings, also a classic button-down that I can wear over a swimsuit or with jeans. I started looking for gold tires that have been on my list since Christmas and finally found them. What you won't find in my receipts are spontaneous Zara purchases that regularly fill my shopping cart – dresses that I might wear a few times to work, or a top that I would like to wear to an event and then maybe never wear again. I have reduced trend pieces; but that doesn't mean that I gave up experimenting.
Dressing meant being able to experiment without self-confidence, without the idea of being "trendy", and without the pressure – good or bad – that is created for other people by being dressed.
Even as a woman who works in fashion and loves it, I still felt what many of us may have felt at the beginning of the pandemic: "What good is it to get dressed?" Months later I found that it was simply a matter of liking it. Not only do I enjoy the prospect of getting up to open my closet or dresser drawer for the possibility of a new outfit, I also enjoy the fact that I only do it for myself – that no one else actually sees what I'm wearing (except for that few colleagues who take a quick look from the waist at a virtual meeting point). Now that other people have been removed from my everyday life (except for my family), my opinion isn't just the only thing that matters, it's really the only period. And suddenly dressing meant the opportunity to experiment without self-confidence, without the idea of being "trendy" and without the pressure – good or bad – that is created for other people by dressing.
I've dealt with it a lot in life – tried to get rid of fear of what other people think; But it was always just an exercise for me. Something that I have to practice and unlearn and that still exists. I feel the most at Fashion Week when I dress for other editors and street style photographers, but I feel it in the office on normal days. There is pressure there too. Now it's gone and I've found something more satisfying in its place. There is something uniquely pleasing that comes with my outfits being my own, and I approach everyone like my uninhibited second class self attacking a costume box. I feel like Carrie Bradshaw dressing in a pair of knee highs and panties in my apartment for my mood just because I can.
Sure, I still see trends and follow influencers who stand up for them through the pandemic at home. I dealt with biker shorts, birkenstocks, batik and rainbow-colored necklaces, which you probably saw when you took over your lining. But there is a difference. I choose a la carte; I choose trends more carefully, shop less for new things and enjoy discovering the gems in my own closet. Since there is no audience to dress for, I learn to simply follow my intuition. I see the time I have now as an opportunity to define my personal style. My self-confidence grows stronger, my voice gets louder and it simply and often asks: Does it make you happy to wear it?
Image source: POPSUGAR Photography / Eric Helgas
Product credit: Nanushka top, AGOLDE jeans, Tory Burch sweater